
This spring, my mom and dad gave to me a magnet that is the only magnet on my refrigerator at home. It reads in huge, bold, black and white lettering the famous Winston Churchill quote
"Never, Never, Never, Never Give Up. That pretty much sums up my Leadville 2009 experience. I gave everything I had to give and I never, never, never, never gave up. Even though I could have. And at times I wanted to. But I didn't. Quitting lasts forever. Bike races don't.
Knowing how clearly disappointed I was with how the day went,
Coach Eric told me that I am allowed to be disappointed that I didn't win-that's what makes me a pro. But, I am not to be disappointed with my effort or in my ability. I clearly gave it my best, totally emptied the bucket and it just didn't work out.

First things first: The Leadville Crew sure knows how to put on a killer event! Nothing gets by the LT100 staff and it makes for an incredible race vibe and overall experience. My sincere appreciation goes out to the organizers and to the hundreds and hundreds of volunteers that make this event so awesome and for keeping us safe out there. We all know it is not an easy thing to do, so thank you!
The start was absolute mayhem (cold, too: it was about 38 degrees and had been raining all morning.) I had heard that registered rider #s were up this year due to the "special invites" list. Typically, about 1,000 line up. This year, I heard it was 1,600. Good grief, this race has gotten big. Anyway, I was prepared for the chaos...sort of. 10 min. before the start I watched Rebecca Rusch walk through the front gate and plop her bike down on the front row. So, I knew I had a lot of riders to make my way through in order to get on her wheel.
About 5 miles in, there was an enormous herd of cattle running on both sides of us-super scary and funny at the same time. A guy in front of me plowed through a huge pile of fresh cow dung and flung a generous smattering of it-kid-you-not-into my right nostril, onto my lips, and completely covered the right lense of my sunglasses. Got it in my eye, too. I quickly wiped it off with my gloves (super smart move, Amanda) and rode without glasses until mile 60. I am almost 98.9% sure that I am going to come away from Leadville 2009 with giardia. Awesome.
The official LT100 Helicopter
Anyway, I had avoided a bunch of near crashes and buried myself up the St. Kevin's climb in order to make it to where there were about 10 riders separating me and Rebecca. Okay, phew, time to back off. By this time it had really started raining. I made it out to the pavement section for a long downhill to Turquoise Lake and started climbing on the pavement. Then, I got the "oh no" squish at mile 14.
All bike riders know that squish I am talking about. You bounce and squirm and look at your tire umpteen times while you try to figure out if you have a flat. Then you ride more. Then you bounce more. Then you deny your denial and get off and squeeze it. Then you finally figure out you have a flat. The epic story is that I tried to seal it twice, no dice. Then I took out the valve stem, dumped my stans, put in a tube, put the tire back on, borrowed a pump from someone that didn't work, finally found an air source, the tube had a hole in it. Had to hunt down another tube. Find more air. Fix it again. Blah blah blah this took about 20 min from the time I discovered the leak until the time I was rolling again. In the meantime, standing there dripping wet in the 38 deg. temps, I was quickly becoming hypothermic. Sucked down some gels and kept rolling.
The hardest part about this set back was that I was now placed into chase mode in the middle of all of the slower folks. I think hundreds and hundreds of people passed me while I was fixing my flat and I had to chase them all down, one by one to get going again. Let me tell you, I burned so many matches I had hoped to use later. It was an incredibly crowded course.
I stopped in at the aid station for a new wheel, made the change myself and tried to just keep my head in the game. Seems I have lots of experience with that this year: flat at Marathon Nationals, major almost-race ending crash at XC Nationals, getting lost and flatting at the Intermontane challenge...I was hoping that my bad luck streak was going to come to an end for my biggest race of the season.
Lance and Co. coming through the first Aid StationThere are so many things that happen in a 100-mile race. For brevity's sake, some quick details: it poured rain for the climb up sugarloaf and the powerline descent and because I had fallen so far back into the middle of the race pack, my descending skills couldn't help me like they usually do. I banged out the Columbine Mine Climb and tried to just laugh off the absurdity of riding in a hail storm. It was an incredibly windy day. I found myself alone in every flat section on the return trip when we were riding into the wind. Totally in no-man's land all day. That was a really tough thing to deal with because so much of this race depends on working with other riders. Lots of men sucked my wheel though. I heard the phrase "sorry, I've got nothing" many times today. But hey, you can't fault them for that - at least they were being honest!
Me, rolling down the red carpet. Final time 8:40. Still get a big ol' belt buckle, but I already have one of those. What I really wanted was the chance to be up there fighting for the win.
So my second Leadville is in the books. As much as I wanted to make this year my last attempt, something tells me I am going to keep havin' at it until I can put a good race together and not be the bridesmaid again. I still managed to come in 66th overall, so if I do get into the lottery again next year, I will get to line up in the front 100!
Is this recent string of setbacks going to affect my approach to racing? Nah. As the wise Churchill also said "
Courage is going from failure to failure with enthusiasm." Mom, Dad, seems a new magnet is in order.